Before I turn into Skeletor; I will now set my weight loss goal. I am looking at a weight of 140. I want to maintain a five pound range...up or down. So now I would like to weigh anywhere between 135 through 145.
My biggest dilemma are tops. I'm not used to wearing anything
clingy. This is a fear I will conquer. In due time. I have a long
torso and have an extremely difficult time. I just don't feel
comfortable in short polo tops. I have resigned myself to shop in the
mens' department to purchase size small in polo tops. This should not
be. I wish someone out there would send my name into one of those
make-over shows to help me get adjusted to my new body. I'm not lying
here, I have having such a horrible time. I am not used to being
thinner. My mind has not caught up with my body.
All the years of being overweight has ruined my body. I did this to
myself. No one force fed me. I have probably twenty pounds if not more
of lose skin that will never go away. I am working my butt off in the
gym five days a week and with the help of my trainer; Drake from SNAP I
am determined to succeed to reach my goal.
There are some days I wish I could magically remove this loose skin.
I have health insurance but this is considered cosmetic and not
covered. Never mind that I have rid myself of diabetes. Never mind that I
now cost my health insurance less in outlays. I'm not doing this to try
to look like I am twenty years old...not going to happen. It's going to
get hot soon and I am concerned about skin problems and basically
friction and chaffing. I call it as it is. There is no other nice way
to describe this.
SEASON 6 VIEWERSHIP CHALLENGE
7 years ago